Happy Happy New Year!
December 31st, 2013
Getting our first view of our little man
I just laid your big brother down to sleep for the last
night of 2013. We found out who you are
today. 4:57 pm, New Year’s Eve 2013. A new beginning for our family, a new year. I am hoping against all hope that we will get
to hold you in 2014. You are so
beautiful. Beautiful boy. My precious, beautiful baby boy. My heart leaped in my chest when I saw the
phone call from our agency today. You
see, we have actually been waiting a very long time for you, and we were told
the call would be coming any day…so when I saw the call coming in, my heart
start pounding and my palms started to sweat….this was it! We were about to
find out about you. I was in the middle
of trying to get your big brother Max to go number two on the toilet when the
phone rang. Someone from the agency was on the other end
of the phone and she asked me again if we had specified boy or girl…my heart
sank a little thinking she just had another question to ask us, but when I told
her we didn’t care if you were a boy or a girl, she said “Well we have a little
boy for you…he’s nine months old and his name is -----. She told me to go
check my e-mail. Your Grandma heard the
excitement in my voice and took over at the potty with Max. I ran in to find your dad. (He told me he thought I was excited because
Max finally went poop on the potty) Nope.
I was excited to open up an e-mail together with your dad so we could
see you for the first time. You did not
disappoint son. You are just
perfect. You are the perfect fit for our
family. I instantly wanted to get on a
plane and go hold and kiss you.
Waiting
will be one of the hardest things I will ever do in my life. It was so fun to see your dad smile from ear
to ear as he looked at you for the first time.
I have seen that smile on him before…it’s not a normal smile…His face
looked like that when I told him I was pregnant with your brother, and the day
your brother was born. It’s a proud
smile. An excited smile. A special
smile, reserved just for his boys. His
TWO boys. We have two boys! How fun is
that? I keep staring at the 5 pictures they sent us of you. It's like I have known you forever, it's like you have always been a part of us... but we are just "meeting" you for the first time. I can’t seem to wipe the smile off my face
today. I kind of feel like I am floating
around the house. But I also feel like
a huge part of our family is not with us.
I hope you are warm tonight as you go to sleep. I hope you can feel your mama’s love. You have no idea we are coming for you and
will take you into a world where nothing is familiar. But someday, you will only know us as your
family. You will fight and wrestle with
your big brother, you will snuggle in bed with mama as I read you books, you
will play baseball out in the yard with your dad, you will torment your poor
doggies. You will be home. Someday.
We’re coming for you little one.
We cannot wait to meet you in person.
So yeah...it's a boy! We wanted to share the news with everyone that has been supporting us and praying with us for such a long time. Unfortunately we can't tell you too much about him or show any pictures until things are more final...so you will have to just trust me when I tell you he is insanely beautiful. His eyes will look into your soul...
Also, many of you may have already seen but we reached our fundraising goal! Just hours before we got the call. Hours. So if you don't believe in God, maybe you should. This is by far the best New Year's Eve I have ever had. By far.
My resolutions this year:
1- Get on my knees in gratitude everyday and pray
2- Get our baby home
3- Somehow try to personally thank every single person that helped us reach our goal
Happy New Year everyone!
Love,
Jen, Tony, Max and Baby boy
Getting our first view of our little man
Baby Schmid