Birthday Boy


One year ago tomorrow we were placed on a list of families approved to remove their children from the DRC.  It was the day after Moses’ 3rd birthday.  

Last night I got an email from another DRC mom, who told me to check our Lifesong donations.  We have decided not to continue to ask for money from friends and family for our adoption.  We had committed to asking for a certain amount and then once we raised that we would come up with the rest on our own …or just pray that God would provide.  Somehow…every time we need funds …God provides.  We have been financially struggling with the adoption process since our agency was  debarred in December.  We had to find a new agency and with that came many more fees.   

Out of the blue one day, a mom we met in the DRC said there was another DRC mom who knew someone looking to donate to a family still waiting to get their children out of DRC. Well there aren’t very many of us left so she told them about us.  Last night, that donation went through.  We can now pay for our new agency and HOPEFULLY a ticket to the DRC.  I got so excited last night.  I was like “TONY this must be a sign, last year at this time we were put on the list…and it’s Moses’ birthday  and….” Then I had to reign it in because I felt the lump rise and the tears coming.  You see I have had this feeling of excitement and hope before…and been let down.   So instead of getting ahead of myself, I am praising God for my sweet four year old boy today.  I wish I could eat cupcakes with him and watch him open his gifts, but I have to live another milestone without him here.  I am grieving and rejoicing today.  Letting myself watch the videos and look at the pictures today.   I rejoice in the possibility of bringing him home this year,  I grieve in the possibility that we won’t.  I rejoice in his four years of life.  I grieve that I have missed out on those years.  

 Happy Birthday Love.  We miss you. 












Moses Birthday from Jennifer Schmid on Vimeo.